How priceless is Your unfailing love! Both high and low among men find refuge in the shadow of Your wings. (Psalm 26:7)
Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him. (Psalm 34:8)
Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge. Selah (Psalm 62:8)
I am so loved by the most amazing Love ever. A smile lights my face, my eyes are bright with joy.
Tonight as I made my way back to my dorm, the cool night air tugging at my gray hoodie, the dark sky with tiny white specks above, I began wishing for my daddy’s strong arms to wrap me in a hug- but realizing like always, he’s not here.
I remember thinking as I approached the door, I just need to be loved on. This is not in a self-centered, self-pity way; just a simple truth that’s been a lingering desire I’ve been aware of the last few days. It’s not friends, classes, or the “normal” things that are on my mind lately. I have a lot of peace and contentment. I have constant joy! Yet- my heart keeps turning back to this longing to be loved. It’s not overwhelming, it’s just there when I slow down enough to reflect or spend a moment alone. And I know God is the place to search. I’ve been praying, God, I know You love me…inside of me there is this yearning to see it, feel it, encounter it. I need Your love.
As I stood in front of my dorm tonight, the thought came to mind in return to my desire: I can come to Him for anything.
Earlier when I asked for His love, I knew in my mind He loves me- I’ve experienced it countless times, every day I am aware of His love. I don’t doubt He loves me. My desire is more that I’m wanting to encounter it in new and deeper ways, a refreshing revelation of His affections for me.
I was just waiting on Him to act.
Tonight, my heart believed that His love is available for me to receive if I just come to Him, He has anything I need and gives freely. No waiting on Him to show me.
I just need to be loved on tonight. And guess what? I came to God, and I told Him what I needed, and He said, “I have the love You need right here, right now. You don’t have to wait.”
I feel loved on. He is lavishing His love on me as I come up the stairs; I know He is with me, I know He is saying to me, “Breanna, I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you. I love you so much.”
Being loved is the most amazing feeling ever. I’m going to just enjoy it.
Sometimes you need a place of reassurance, a place where you can go and know, everything is alright. You need something to support you, hold you up, to be strong when you need to just rest and feel safe. A refuge. Sometimes you need just someone to fully care and be there. And by sometimes, I mean always. You know this is not a sometimes source for what you need, but an always promise. You need this source to be something you can trust, that you can have faith in.
My place, my source, my always is God.
Sometimes I need a refuge not because I am troubled, but because I need safety, comfort, strength, love. I need someone to look after me. I need someone I can trust and have faith in with everything. I need someone to fully care and be there. I need a place of reassurance, a place I can go and know- everything is alright. I need someone to support me, hold me up, to be strong when I need to just rest and feel safe. Someone I can trust. Someone who I can be completely comfortable with, who knows me so well I don’t have to explain everything or worry about what they’ll think, because I know they already know.
That’s who God is for me. And my mom. Haha :] (Okay, that’s only a few times a week, depending on the week…anyways, I love and cherish her.).
God as my refuge, my source, my always- it’s beautiful, it’s amazing, and it’s more than I could ever hope to find anywhere else in all the universe. He’s present right now with me. And I’m just being loved on.
Who else would I go to besides You, God? Where else would I turn? I only want to seek You. I only want Your love, Your arms, You.
God’s words of love…
“But as for me, it is good to be near God. I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge; I will tell of all Your deeds.” (Psalm 73:28)
“I will say of the LORD, ‘He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” (Psalm 91:2)
“But let all who take refuge in You be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love Your name may rejoice in You.” (Psalm 5:11)
“[ A miktam of David. ] Keep me safe, O God, for in You I take refuge.” (Psalm 16:1)
“Show the wonder of Your great love, You who save by Your right hand those who take refuge in You… (Psalm 17:7)
“As for God, His way is perfect; the word of the LORD is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in Him.” (2 Samuel 22:31; Psalm 18:30)
“How great is Your goodness, which You have stored up for those who fear You, which You bestow in the sight of men on those who take refuge in You.” (Psalm 31:19)
“I long to dwell in your tent forever and take refuge in the shelter of your wings. Selah” (Psalm 61:4)
“Let the righteous rejoice in the LORD and take refuge in Him; let all the upright in heart praise Him!” (Psalm 64:10)
“Be my rock of refuge, to which I can always go; give the command to save me, for You are my rock and my fortress.” (Psalm 71:3)
If you make the Most High your dwelling— even the LORD, who is my refuge- (Psalm 91:9) Make Him your dwelling place…read the rest of this chapter too :]
“It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in man. It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in princes.” (Psalm 118:8-9)
“Look to my right and see; no one is concerned for me. I have no refuge; no one cares for my life.” (Psalm 142:4) David wrote this when he felt like nobody cared about Him, but in many other psalms he is encouraged because God showed him His great love and care.
“I cry to you, O LORD; I say, “You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living.” (Psalm 142:5)
“…let them come to Me for refuge; let them make peace with Me, yes, let them make peace with Me.” (Isaiah 27:5)
“The LORD is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in Him.” (Nahum 1:7)